I am not dead and i was never a quitter!!

I have chosen the nickname Breath coz in real life I always feel that I am running out of oxygen it is true in real life I don't have this space....Where you can be by yourself and just be happy and relaxed about being with yourself, in real life I am by myself holding my breath just to avoid people's insanity and un-sensibility.
And unfortunately here also I wasn't able to breath, nothing can compensate the real life peace, but that doesn't mean I am going to give up on here....This is why I came back and starting writing again ( or let us say crapping I am convinced that I am a crappy writer not connected to my feelings at all :( )

And guys come on don't ask me about about real peace with the significant other.....People wake up..I said real life not ferry tales land...There is no significant other for me in all human beings relations aspects:)
till next time

Smile,it is movie time:)

Today I updated my profile, or let's say I updated a part of it:), well I spent more than an hour to update the movies part, you know the famous condition when you focus on something you really know but it just fades away am sure there are more worthy movies to be written there but hey ! This is the best I can come up with for the moment:). Cinema is one of my greatest joys in life, it is the only place where you really get disconnected from reality (in a healthy and legal way!!) from your reality even if you are watching a super real scenario displayed on the big wide silver screen I am really tired, my dream vacation is to go a movie theatre, to be the only person in the hall, and just sit there and watch an endless run of high quality movies I did it a few times in a similar way, I just passed days at home doing nothing but watching movies, but nothing can compete with darkness and the size of the screen in movie theatres, plus at home I am not really the only person who lives in it:). People say books always win imagination wise, but I don't know I kind of disagree, I know it is true how you imagine the story is different from one person to another and that is the beauty of reading, but I think movies like Harry Potter,the trilogy of Lord Of The Rings had shown that Cinema just gives another dimension to the story, those magnificent and unbelievable worlds and characters. Where else you can see that but the movie houses. Also for real stories,the very realistic movies like Unfaithful,Beautiful Mind,Mystic River..Etc, you just lose yourself with the ray of light embraced by the white smiling screen(yeah it is sometimes when I watch the screen before or after the movie,it gives me the feeling like it is a part of a very big smile) and tell yourself there are such great moments in life that are not related to the outside world or let me be specific not related to the materialistic world, just you, the silver screen and your smile or your affection.................

http://oscars.movies.yahoo.com/nominees/

hmmm

3rd attempt of writing this post, i wrote few lines twice and i erased it, i just found it too lame. I am very exhausted and empty!! Is it spring depression? Don't know, but i really hate this feeling, being tired out of nothing, and being lost through the hours of the day. I want to be more organised than this, or let's say i have to be more organised than this, there are stuff i want to do and i am not able to do it out of this hakoona matata lifestyle i am following. Well it is true work is number 1 in my life, but the other stuff i want to do is also career related, a small portion of this stuff is personal. I guess i am lazy about pushing myself into a plan coz i am already bored of everything so i don't want to bother myself with following a plan. It is normal, no matter how you want to rephrase it or see it, professional life is professional life it can never fill the holes of ur emotional life. ' doing his job with alot of passion ' sometimes is not just good enough, the moonlight can never make up for the sunlight, no matter how long you are sitting on the roof collecting the bright moonlight moments.....................

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Surprisingly my second post. It is early in the morning, everything is peaceful and calm, traffic is adorable, people walking in the street are not yet grumpy. I can't say I am a morning person, I hardly wake up at this time unless I have work:) and of course during college I was either still awake till this hour studying for exams or waking up at this hour trying to accomplish an assignment..Yeah college days were so glorious:) LOL...But I have to admit something is so special about early morning hours..At this hour you feel that everything is still so pure so clean...And inner peace at this moment isn't such an impossible thing.....The most thing I like,that.. No matter how was last night or how much things are running through my mind or problems, depression, bad events....Etc....Only at this hour my mind reaches its best state of purity and clarity, and a lot of times I can look back at those things ( even if it is hanging ) and smile and tell myself it is only us who can give proportions to thing....Nothing is really that important or that worthy....It depends on the way you want to handle it or go through it...

I love early morning hours and sometimes wish that life turns into un-interrupted cycle of those moments.....................................

Am I sure of what am I doing?

As title is showing I am not really sure why I am creating this blog spot, usually bloggers use their blogs for specific purposes, well i am not sure on mine, I am a person who failed to write his diaries for 2 consecutive days:) but anyway I always had tendencies to be creative but I have never decided to provide time to explore this part in me. Well for the time being we can say this blog will be a motive to explore the creative aspects of me!!!

Time will tell how is going to be, and I am willing to enjoy it as much as possible.